About Jill Stone
Drinking was fun. Until it wasn’t.
Drinking stopped being fun when I couldn’t control my desire for it.
Each night at around 5pm, I would pour myself a glass of wine while making dinner.
After a long day, whether at work or taking care of my kids, I looked forward to having that drink. It numbed the stress of the day and all of the negative emotions that came with it.
The problem was, one glass led to two, which eventually led to the whole bottle. Maybe more.
It wasn’t long before I was drinking an entire bottle regardless of how my day had gone. I wasn’t just drinking to “numb out” after a difficult day… I was drinking because the urge to drink was so strong. My desire to drink had become so intense that willpower, no matter how much, could stop me from drinking.
My drinking became a daily habit. The habit lasted years. Every time I had a thought about drinking, I would feel that intense urge to drink. I mean, even a thought as simple as, “A drink sounds good right now” was all it took for me to start drinking. And keep drinking.